I'm standing in Wal-Mart last Saturday with the kid's school list in my hand. Silent tears are bubbling up in my eyes. I contemplate throwing the list in the garbage and flying out of there, but I don't. I stay and fill my cart with 6 of these, 2 of those, 5 of something or others, and make a mental note of what's not there so I can find it somewhere else. There's mobs of people there, most have their kids with them and everywhere I turn I can hear "Mom...Mom.... MOOOOOM!" as the kids grab for the newest gear they can get their hands on. Thank goodness neither of my school age children are with me, except for my oldest who long ago graduated. This is the first time I've ever had to pick up school supplies for two children, so far I've only had one child in school at one time. This year is different... this year will be the last time I see one of my children start their very first day of school... this year I want to hold on to Jevan and never let him go...
I wonder how many Mom's feel like me? Are you counting the days until the bell rings? Or are you dreading that first day when chaos surrounds the morning? I wonder if next year will be better, when I have gotten used to both kids in school and I finally realize that I have no more children waiting in the wings for kindergarten?
A week today, five years in the making... sniff, sniff.
While typing this post yesterday the phone rings. It's the Kindergarten teacher with Jevan's schedule... Jevan's world just got a teeny bit bigger.
My little man on his first birthday :)